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Mindful Awakening

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Mindful Awakening means using mindfulness meditation, in combination with other techniques and methods, to contact awakening. Awakening means classical enlightenment. It’s generally something that you begin to be able to work with after you have become fairly proficient in mindfulness meditation. Reading the articles on this page probably won’t give you awakening, of course, but it will begin to point to how the process of mindful awakening works.

What Is Awakening?

Human beings are caught in the dream within their mind. The stories we tell ourselves. Even the web of the senses. Awakening in any form means to be free of one of these, even for a little while. Once you see the dream, or the illusion, you will never quite be able to believe it again. Awakening means to wake up from these dreams and illusions.

Over time you will contact more and more such awakenings, and eventually you can have permanent freedom from many illusions. The most important illusion to be free of is that you are a self made of thoughts and feelings. The “I” that you feel is you is actually nothing more than the continuously changing activity of thoughts and feelings. Mental pictures, words in the head, some sensations in the body. It’s never the same from moment to moment and yet we think that to be our true self.

The Dream of the Self

Human beings have an advanced capacity for planning. We can project our imagination far ahead in time to plan our future actions. We can also remember the distant past in order to help our planning to be more accurate and effective.

As we are doing this planning (which amounts to fantasizing or daydreaming), we include an image of ourselves in the planning we are doing. I will go here and there, I will do this and that. All the while we are picturing a mental image of ourselves going about doing these activities. We also remember the activities we have done in the past and picture ourselves doing those. This mental image of ourselves is like an avatar in a 3D video game. It looks and seems real. But it is simply a mental construction. This avatar of the self in the mind is a big part of the ego, the thing we believe ourselves to be.

Most people believe that they actually are their mental image. It’s made more realistic seeming because we can feel the feelings of our memories or expect to have in the future, feel the emotions we had in the past or expect to have in the future. This mental creation of the sense of self is much more compelling and realistic than one of today’s video game avatars. Nevertheless, it is every bit as false, imaginary, and ephemeral. Most of our suffering comes from the fact that we believe ourselves to actually be this avatar. In reality, we are simply the biological organism in whose brain the avatar is generated. Seeing this clearly, we wake up from the dream of the self. This is the meaning of awakening—the beginning of liberation.

Real awakening is not a self improvement program. It’s something far deeper, weirder, and paradoxical than that.

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How to Wake Up from the Dream

There are many ways to wake up from the dream of the self, but first we will focus on, as the name of the page implies, mindful awakening. That is, using mindfulness for waking up. That starts out with using mindfulness meditation to learn the core skills of concentration, sensory clarity, and equanimity. This page will clue you into the many articles we have about doing that.

Once you have these basics under your belt, it becomes possible to use them to deconstruct the sense of self directly. This is one of the most paradoxical uses of meditation is to deconstruct the sense of self, the feeling of being you. This sounds weird and strange, and it’s reasonable to ask yourself why anybody would want to do such a thing. But the reason is simple: the sense of “I” that you depend on all day long is actually a construction, a dream, a fantasy, an avatar, an illusion (as mentioned above). It’s this construction of thoughts and feelings that insight meditation (i.e. mindfulness) will help you to deconstruct.  Here are a number of articles describe exactly how to do that:

Meditation: Why Deconstruction?

Deconstructing the Self with Mindfulness Meditation

Untangle and Be Free

Meditation on No-self

Deconstructing the Perception of the Ego/self

What Is the Self? An Interview with Thomas Metzinger

 

One of the main things to avoid in your practice of mindful awakening is the Observer Trap. What’s that? It’s the typical way people get stuck in their practice. Simply put: it’s making another avatar out of the being the person who is meditating. It’s also easy to avoid. Here’s a whole article about how to work with that:

Escaping the Observer Trap

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Various traditions focus on single paths to waking up, but actually the paths to awakening are numerous, maybe infinite. Here are a few articles that describe a few very interesting openings:

Follow the Threads: Mindful Awakening

Mindful Awakening: The Cost Is just Everything

Good Night Moon

Just Let Go—Surrender Everything in Meditation

Nonduality and Awakening

Nonduality or nondual awareness is the key to awakening. Nondual awareness is the experience of all things being one in consciousness. Nonduality is a big topic—to learn more about it, click here. Below are some articles about nondual awakening.

The Universe Is NOT One

Nonduality and Mindfulness — Two Great Traditions that Go Great Together

Nondual Meditation: One Practice of Total Awareness

Never Believe Anything

Conclusion

Mindfulness meditation, if practiced correctly and diligently, can lead to profound awakening. Waking up is both the most awesome and most normal thing in the world. But don’t believe me. Do it and find out for yourself what waking up is really like. If you have questions, leave them in the comments below.

 

 

Learn mindfulness meditation with Michael W. Taft’s bestselling book The Mindful Geek for free.

 

 

 

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Mindful Awakening: The Cost Is Just Everything

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by Jessica Graham

There are certain defining moments throughout spiritual development. When you first recognize that you are not your thoughts. When you experience physical or emotional pain break up into flowing sensations that are no longer “bad,” therefore revolutionizing your relationship with pain. When you fully grasp the truth that suffering is optional. When you come to know oneness—not in the wow-woo, new age way, but in the fully realized way. And when you fall in love with everything, including the emptiness, knowing only love. All of these and more are awakening. These fundamental discoveries rearrange you at the deepest level, creating paradigm shifts and psychological evolution. Once you’ve woken up, you can’t really go back to sleep. But you can hit the snooze button and hang out in a kind of groggy half asleep limbo. This is not a very cool place to reside. But it’s a spot where a lot of folks get stuck for years and years.

The thing is, waking up is scary. It means losing everything, and that doesn’t sit so well with the small, self-centered, pleasure seeking self that we are tethered to before waking up. In fact waking up is the last thing that that part of us wants to do. It wants to get off, feel good, and get its numerous daily fixes. We want the booze to make us happy, the pills to make us sleep, the Netflix to keep us entertained, the sex to keep us satisfied, and our loved ones to make us feel like we are enough. Waking up means seeing through all of that, and then watching it all slip away.

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It doesn’t generally happen all at once with a flash of lightning and a dramatic sound cue. It’s usually more of a process, which is a good thing because otherwise waking up would cause a lot more psychotic breaks (it does happen…). Gradually we peel back the layers of identity and attachment, which slowly over the years deepens awakening. But with each of these layers comes another death, another instance of letting go—whether you like it or not. This kind of “letting go” is not really an active thing that you do. It’s rather a thing that happens to you, you let go. When you fight this natural effect of your spiritual work, life gets painfully challenging. You are trying to hold on to something that is no longer even in your fingertips, let alone under your control. Everything starts to feel hard. You don’t want to meditate, you don’t want to interact with anyone, you don’t want to feel or think anymore. A spiritual malaise sets in.

Spiritual Bypassing

It can feel like you are stuck in a kind of hell. Unable to go back to the old ways of excess, avoidance, and unconscious suffering, but also unable to open fully to a new way of life. You have one foot in and one foot out. The resistance to embracing the next iteration of your awakening can be strong as all get out. It can come in the form of falling back into old self-destructive patterns (which, sorry to say, won’t give you the fix they used to), becoming “depressed” and attaching to that identity, and the good ol’ trick of spiritual bypassing.

Spiritual bypassing is when you use your past insights to avoid your present feelings. I’ve seen that there is no self, so I don’t need to do any personal work. Everything is love so I can just ignore how much I hate myself right now. I know suffering is optional, I’m not suffering, I’m past that point. Really. And so on. I myself have been an expert spiritual bypasser over the years. Luckily I have friends, teachers, and a partner who don’t let me get away with it for very long. I’ve also come to see the urge to bypass something as a form of resistance. Whenever there is resistance it’s sure that a new insight and a deeper awakening is close by. In this way resistance has become one my my best friends. When I become aware of it I get all happy, giggly, and throw my arms around it, just like a good buddy. Resistance, if treated gently and with love, peels back to reveal the brightest of jewels. What you really are.

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Yes, seeing what you really are, in all the endless ways, can be scary. You do have to wade through loneliness, grief, confusion, and immense loss. You have to see and love the parts of yourself that frighten and disgust you the most. You have to be willing to die into the fires of awakening, with no hope of recovery. You have to let go of getting a fix from that guy, or that show, or that cookie, or that meditation technique. The part of you that can get a fix will be no more, and when you try to get off on whatever it is, it won’t work. It’s scary and you lose a lot, but once you stop hitting snooze and wake up to the next transformation, none of that will matter. You will be operating from a whole new perspective. Born again, so to speak. Until you reach the next plateau and do it all again. The good news is, your relationship with this process will change as you do. It won’t always be such a big drama to awaken. You won’t hit snooze so many times, and eventually not at all.

It’s Good to Have a Full Mindfulness Toolkit & Some Friends

I am a big believer in having a huge toolkit full of mindfulness practices. While, yes, you do eventually “lose” them too, having useful options on the spiritual path makes for a smoother ride. If you know how to deconstruct thought and emotions, you know how to deconstruct whatever self is arising. That includes the acting out self, the shut-down and avoiding self, and the spiritually bypassing self. If you have some lovingkindness and relaxation techniques available you can soften around your resistance, while also sending it unconditional love. If you can focus on your breath, you have the concentration and equanimity to go about your life even when you are trudging through the Dark Night. So, no matter how awake you are it’s helpful to keep your mindfulness tools clean and sharp. You never know when they might come in handy.

nondual awakeningI also believe that community, or sangha, is a required support when traversing the ever shifting landscape of awakening. While sometimes we need to climb the mountain alone and sit under the stars without company, we also must be willing to climb back down and join humanity once again. A community of peers, teachers, and students is what deepens and sustains my insights and awakenings. I need to be seen, and to see others, to truly transform. I also need oversight, and opportunities to be of service. Plus the loneliness of the spiritual path is eased by having friends you can talk to who know what the heck you are talking about! Perhaps even more than all that, I think the reason we are here at all is to have relationships with others. Through these relationships we heal, grow, and wake up. It is our birthright to connect with everyone and awaken to each glorious moment. And the cost is just everything.

Remember You Are Human

So give up. Give in. Swim out until you can’t see land, and then drop down deep to where there is nothing you’ve ever known. Then pop back up and go to a silly movie with your sweetheart, or eat some peanut butter chocolate chip cookies and binge watch The Walking Dead, or go have a super hot one night stand with a stranger at the bar. You’ll find that it really isn’t either-or. You get to be an enlightened, spiritual being and a beautiful, imperfect human being. You may not relate to the fixes of life the same way as you used to, but the joy and pure pleasure of just being will deepen and flourish in ways you could never imagine.

You won’t want back what you lost, though you may grieve it and have moments of melancholy and heart-aching nostalgia. Remember you are human—it’s hard to let go of the things we hold dear and attach ourselves to with the glue of thought and emotion. But you are also much more than just a human with a mind and body. You are all of it, and all of it is you. You don’t need to earn your awakening, you just need to put both feet in and remember to wake up. Now. And now. And now.

Jessica Graham is a meditation teacher, sex, relationship, and spiritual guide for couples and individuals, speaker, and author of Good Sex: Getting Off Without Checking Out. She is a contributing editor for Deconstructing Yourself and her work is featured on many apps including; Simple Habit, Wise@Work, Emjoy, Breethe, and Sanity & Self. Jessica is also an award-winning actor and filmmaker. Connect with Jessica on Instagram and at yourwildawakening.com.

Find all of Jessica’s DY articles here.

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14 thoughts on “Mindful Awakening: The Cost Is Just Everything”

  1. Thank you for writing this. I’ve felt myself at a (deeper?/higher?) plateau lately and this hit all the points I’ve been feeling. Especially the sense that I don’t ever want my attachments back but it’s still painful letting them go until I have let them go fully. And hitting that snooze button repeatedly. I shared it on my FB and hope more people get the message.

  2. Indeed, lots of very relatable things are brought up in this article. Thank you, Jessica for writing such beautiful and eloquent pieces! They are very inspiring and worth coming back to if a period of spiritual regression sets in.

  3. Thank you very much.
    It’s difficult to find this type of consciuos writting. Most of the people talking around about evolution and mindfulness in a new age style.
    In my experience I find it much more like an earthquake or a tsunami, but through the years learned not to desperate.

  4. You have a way of nailing, or spotlighting things I am beginning to realize, and the last few sentences as a wrap up to your article brought me to inspired tears. I reflected instantly that there is a ‘knowing’ inside of this bodymind, one I’ve been cultivating somehow, that was always there, yet somehow so obscured. It seems that lately, just letting this ‘knowing’ BE, is tantamount to opening the floodgates of lovingkindness, and in a more metaphysical context, sliver by sliver, (and sometimes massive wave by massive wave), I see that I am everything, and that this power is nothing but infinite. A lifetime of work ahead for me, thank you for sharing with me so beautifully, it went right to my heart, just as I needed it.

  5. Man so amazing I’m talking spot on and I never commented on a website before, You are a divine blessing. You are helping me move to another part of my journey as i surrender the old.

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